If only . . .What if . . . These phrases haunted me for months and months in late 2017; the guilt caused many sleepless nights. Could I have stopped this accident from happening? What if I had answered my phone that afternoon?

I returned to my desk at work one hot, steamy August afternoon to see three missed calls from him. Hmmmm . . . something is wrong. I felt it and I knew it. I called him back. “I just turned into the mountains and I’m going to lose service. I’ll call you later.” It was weeks before I heard from again.

As I wrote earlier, I was mad at myself for not answering his calls. For the record, I just wasn’t carrying my phone around that day; I had left it on my desk. There is no blame to pin on anyone, but I was still angry. What if . . . The truth is I didn’t even know why he was calling me, but I did know that something had been bothering him the past few days, but he either wasn’t ready or didn’t want to share with me. I still don’t know what was wrong that day.

The days and weeks went by, and I was constantly haunted by those questions. Then, a wise minister opened my eyes. He asked if I was bigger than God. “Of course not,” was my response. He reminded me that with God ALL things are possible. Our God could have changed anything about that day, absolutely any little detail that would have prevented the accident. Instead, He allowed it to happen.

The accident happened; a man was dead; an arrest was made. Everything is changed.

To be continued . . . if you are interested in reading more.

Susan Taylor